Uninspired

I think about my blog sometimes and feel guilty. I wanted to give y’all two stories this month, but I’ll give you this post and a story. I’ve been feeling uninspired lately. And I’ve been building new relationships and adjusting to having a toddler so when my energy is low, my creativity is also low. I know I don’t have to write the most creative, unique story ever, but wouldn’t that be more fun to read? So sometimes the small ideas I do get, I push away. But I’m gonna work on embracing my small ideas and starting from there. Because writing is better than not writing.

Given the state of the world, I also feel pressure to accomplish my dreams. There’s COVID to worry about even if you are being careful and the ocean was on fire recently. It was because of an oil spill, but still. Scary stuff. I feel like accomplishing something should the world become more unstable and there are more immediate, pressing matters. Some people are dealing with pressing matters now so I definitely count myself blessed. And hopefully things will become more stable sooner rather than later. And I can relinquish this creeping idea that I’m running out of time. Because in reality, I’m not. I’m just turning 30 and the toddler takes up a lot of time and energy. I don’t like the idea of having to choose, but since I haven’t quite mastered waking up early to work, it ultimately comes to that. But this could be temporary and by next month, I could be back to faithfully working on my first draft. But even if I’m not back working on my first draft, I don’t want to beat myself up about it.

I know I have blog posts about what to do when you’re feeling uninspired, but not about how to push through low energy or knowing to just rest when you’re low energy. So send me all the ideas if you have any. 

May your creativity and energy be high. May you rest when you need it.